Loving your self

I have struggled with being comfortable to be alone on this deployment. Needing to learn that its okay if it is just me and the kids, to be happy with just me. When my husband was home I spent every evening with him. He is my only friend. I realized during this deployment that having the wrong friends/family in your life is poisonous. At least it is for me. It really takes a hold of me mentally and causes me to become such a negative person and i absolutely do NOT want to be that person, EVER. I have done a pretty good job the last few weeks in letting people go. I really think that for me, it was the first thing i had to do to become comfortable with just me.

1. I am starting to realize that comfort comes with age. I don't need to be the most liked or the funnest person at the get together's.
2. I need to pamper myself. whether that be a regular massage, manicure, pedicure, hair cut, shopping trip, workout, bubble bath, good book or just some alone time. It is much needed and it makes me feel prettier.
3. Setting goals and working towards them i have learned is one of my strengths as a person. Finding your strengths is extremely uplifting. I know i tend to focus on negative things when my life is in a negative place.
4.Comedy! I need comedy. It puts me in a better mood instantly.


Deployments suck! they feel never ending at times but then i look back and think "Wow, we already have 6 months that have come and gone". Talking to my husband daily (i know that it is not always the case for some) has helped me put a lot into perspective. We plan our future lives out together, making goals and sticking to them. What i';m hoping to get from this deployment is a better sense of love for myself, because i'm frickin awesome!



                                        We both look like RE RE's here but I love this picture.